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| Time to GO |
| 09.10.04 (8:19 pm) [edit] |
So I'm going up to my appartment in less than 12 hours now. Haven't started packing a thing but I'm sure I'll get it together by tomorrow. I went to see my family a couple of hours ago. They are all still really awsome I enjoy seeing them so much. *Sighs in excitment, tirdness and joy* Year two at University is about to begin! I know it will be better than the last!
- Cherry Bomb :twisted:
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| My Birthday: Not Today |
| 09.10.04 (6:21 am) [edit] |
In history many famous people were born on my birthday, however, three of them stand out to me the most. I guess I will do them in chronological order. I was born on April 22 and apparently before me on that date there came Vladimir Lennin. Lennin was an interesting historical figure who was supposedly killed off by Stalin. Many people see Lennin as a hero because he managed to stop the war, but in reality had made a deal with Germany that basically ruined his country’s future. I am, nonetheless, proud to have been born on the same day as Lennin because he was such a key figure in the state of Russia. Another man that was born on my birthday was Oppenheimer. He is slightly less known then Lennin but possibly more important. He was one of the key inventors in developing the atomic bomb. As everyone probably knows, this bomb created havoc in our world and to this day instills fear in every one of our hearts. He was quoted in saying, “I am the new death, destroyer of worlds”, and I think this quote is absolutely perfect for him and it today, remains as one of my favourites. I am truly lucky to have this man born on my birthday. The final person born on my birthday is a woman and is slightly more fun and riskay than the others. It is Bettie Page. Page is the queen of bondage and was a major pin up star for a large portion of the 20s and 30s. Even though she was not pencil thin and did not entirely radiate beauty about her she was still beautiful. I am very proud to say that she was born on my birthday.
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| 09.10.04 (6:11 am) [edit] |
Hey Everyone,
I know I didn't do a journal entry yesterday on my life but when I got home I just wasn't in the mood. So yesterday. All in all it was pretty good. Again I sat at home and did nothing and later I went out iwth my dad. We listened to one of the CDs I made him and it was pretty good. Then we went out for a nice dinner and it was lots of fun. He brought me cookies so it was yummy. Every year since I was little we've made chocolate chip cookies for back to school time and he gave my sister and I a HUGE tin full. I'm surprised he still makes t hem but they were yummy.
Today: Well so far it looks like I'm just going to sit here and do nothing. I mean really I should be packing and cleaning but who are we kidding? I may do that later I did just wake up afterall. This whole week I've been getting up at 11 so hopefully that won't be too bad. However in three days I start german and MY GOODNESS I forget like all of my vocab. Hopefully I will get it back. Tonight I'm supposed to visit my cousin and aunt. I always LOVE visiting them! Ever since I was a child. I've always thought of them to be hip. Well off I go to watch some TV until someone comes online!
- Cherry Bomb
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| The Locket |
| 09.09.04 (6:08 am) [edit] |
This is a short story I had to write for my english OAC class. I noticed now that there are alot of gramatical errors and like wrong tenses so please try to ignore them! I was going to fix them but I don't really believe in fixing things like that from the original maybe it's the historian in me? Anyway enjoy!
Troy comes home from school and shuts the door behind him. He throws off his sneakers and rushes up the creaky stairs to play with his game system. At the top of the stairs he notices that his door is open a crack so he sneaks in for a closer look. What he sees nearly takes his breath away. There is his girlfriend Jessie sitting on his bed reading. Her white hands playing with the golden locket he had given her earlier for a previous argument. He pushes open the door and bursts in.
“Have you been here long?”, He asks excitedly.
“No. Actually I just got here.”, Jessie replies as she sets down her book and looks into Troy’s eyes. He moves closer to her and sits beside her so his lips are almost touching her’s. His soft breath caresses the tiny hairs on her face which are now standing on end.
“It’s nice here, isn’t it?”, he asks her, “I’ve always liked it.”
“Yes it’s quite nice. Your bed is comfy too.”, Jessie remarks as Troy leans in to kiss her. “Actually I just came here to talk Troy. Before we go any further we need to work out some boundaries.”
“I agree.”, Troy stated as he leaned in to kiss her again. Jessie’s hands fly up and feel Troys back wildly as they kiss. Her nose nusled on his and he runs his fingers through her naturally blond hair. She looked into his deep blue eyes and felt herself getting more and more carried away. Suddenly she stopped and sat up. Troy halted his advances and looked at her longingly.
“We don’t seem to be getting to the point.”, Jessie let out with a cry. Troy stared at her and smiled.
“Well we have three choices. You can continue this evening the way we started it, we can watch TV or do something else or you could leave and pretend this never happened.”
“Well... I want this but we just need to set a few ground rules.” Troy eyed Jessie while she was talking. He sat there puzzled for a moment. Neither of them moved.
“I thought you’d know when to start.” Troy looked puzzled. “Do I have to do all the work myself?” Troy leaned over and started to kiss her again. His tongue penetrated her lips like a moist missile. Troy’s hands started to go up the back of her shirt while Jessie felt Troy’s thighs.
Suddenly she pushed him away, “Well, if we don’t talk about it soon, we’ll run out of time.”
Troy looked more then just a little agitated and as he spoke his voice raised, “Look, we can talk about it now here, later at home or anywhere.”, His eyes almost seemed to be glowing now, “I’m willing!”.
“Well I guess I should go first since I started this. No you know what, I don’t feel like this. It just doesn’t feel right maybe I should go home.” Jessie gets off the bed and walks towards the door. She grabs her book on the way. She is shaking she is so nervous. Troy walks over to her and puts his arms around her.
“Do you want to talk or not? I’m listening.”
“I dunno how comfortable I feel doing this with you”, Jessie mumbles as she talks her way out of Troy’s suffocating embrace, “maybe we should wait.”
“Yeah but Jess... I love you.” Troy stands there motionless as saying those words. Jessie’s voice begins to crack and her speech becomes louder and more fierce.
“So you just feel like spitting those words out every time you’re in trouble? I think the only time I ever hear you saying anything like that is when you’re in trouble.”
“Don’t say things like that Jess, you know I care about you. I’d buy the whole world for you if I could.” Troy begins to move away from Jessie and closer to the bed. He sits down holding his pillow in his tight fists.
Jessie mumbles to herself, “Yeah that’s the problem you selfish prick.” She faces the door but does not make a move to leave.
“Come here and lets make up.” Troy pats the bed and smiles at her. Jessie takes a deep breath and turns around. She looks into Troy’s eyes and sees a little boy that just needs some attention. She walks over and sits down beside him. He puts his arm around her and whispers, “I’m glad we talked.”
There is no smile on Jessie’s face but it is less harsh then it was before. She puts her hand in Troy’s and squeezes it lightly. “So am I.” Jessie rests her head on his chest as they lay down. She smiles to herself knowing that Troy isn’t such a bad guy after all. Troy begins to kiss her neck lightly and then moves up to her ear.
Intermingled in his kisses are words “A lot...”, he kisses her, “... of misunder....”, he kisses her lips, “... standings happen becau...”, he begins to run her hand down his stomach, “... se people don’t...”, he puts her hand down his pants slowly but forcefully, “... talk”. Jessie pulls his hand out and looks at it horrified. She stands up and glares at Troy. She rips the gold heart locket he gave her from off her neck and whips it at his face. It leaves a red march across his cheek.
As she storms out of the room she utters to him, “Right. See you later”, she slams the door, “JACKASS!”. Jessie runs down the stairs and out of Troy’s house.
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| My Hair |
| 09.08.04 (6:33 pm) [edit] |
today was WAY better than yesterday! Although NO ONE was online to talk to! At least tomorrow I get to watch "That 70s Show" because I taped it. I saw a glimpse of it though and DONNA DYED HER HAIR! Insane! Speaking of that I streaked my hair with copper highlights. Looks pretty good. Right now my sister is trying to take a pic of it but I don't think it's working. It went too blurry. Tomorrow i'm going out with my dad and possibly hsi GF for dinner. I'm super excited! I made them some CDs and I can show them my photo album! I can't wait until I go back! Only a couple more days WHOOOOOOO! Anyway I should go now so I'll talk to you cool cats later!
- Cherry Bomb :twisted:
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| Opinion |
| 09.08.04 (6:17 am) [edit] |
My sister and I often argue about many things. Every time we get in an argument though and I get tired I always end it in the same way and usually it just leads to more argument. I try to end it with that fact that we are both right because it is our opinion and everyone’s opinion is right. Thomas Hobbes says in chapter 11 of his book, “They that approve a private opinion, call it opinion; but they that mislike it, heresy: and yet heresy signifies no more than private opinion.” The first time I ever read this quote it just leaped out at me. It’s perfectly what I think. I f I understand Hobbes correctly he’s saying everyone’s opinion is right. Some are just popular opinion and others are heresy. Take Hitler for example, yes I know he’s an overused example for EVERYTHING in history, but he proves valid for this point. Hitler had ideas and opinions that at the time the majority agreed with and he succeeded, however here we have neo Nazis and they have basically the same ideals and they are usually shunned. It’s because the popular opinion now integrates jews and other cultures with us so the neo Nazis are considered heretics, or at the least mentally disturbed. Whether you are Hitler, Churchill or Joe Blow from down the street you are right. There is no way you can have a wrong opinion. Thus I think it concludes my sister and I’s arguments... We are both right... perhaps one *cough* My sister *cough* is more of a heretic then the other.
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| Asthma |
| 09.07.04 (3:15 pm) [edit] |
My asthma has been really acting up today. I guess it's just punishing me for how wonderful it was being yesterday. People whom have never had asthma do not even know the joys! I miss not worrying about where my puffer is all the time and waking up to take my inhaler in the night. I miss sleeping laying down and most of all I miss not being scared that one of my attacks will be worse. So far *knock on wood* they have been pretty bearable and under control! Today though they don't seem to go away ever! I guess it doesn't help that today I've been SO BORED! Everyone is either at school or moved and doesn't have their net up! I can't wait until I move up either although I will miss my family.
Today I did not much of anything. I read some of The Count of Monte Cristo... organized my school computer and played with this one a bit. Then I tried to relax by watching TV and I talked to two ppl on MSN. TWO PEOPLE ALL DAY! It's crazy! Then my room mate for next year phoned me to discuss some stuff. Later tonight I think I'm going to dye my hair... unless my asthma is too bad.
Love you all!
- Cherry Bomb :twisted:
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| Three Poems |
| 09.07.04 (6:06 am) [edit] |
Here are thre poems I had to write for an english OAC course!
Alone and Scared
I’m filled with a great desire,
To label everyone a liar.
My nerves are frayed,
Thoughts are weighed.
Down in the dark,
Faceless in the dark
Alone, alone.
Locked away, insane,
Always in refrain.
Sick of it,
Not a game I’ll quit.
Down in the dark,
Faceless in the dark
Alone, alone.
Stress,
Forget the mess.
Where society rules,
so reins the fools.
Down in the dark,
Faceless in the dark
Alone, alone.
There is no place,
For just another face.
Stand out above,
Like a neon dove.
Down in the dark,
Faceless in the dark
Alone, alone.
Running
I find a pit of darkness deep with in my bones.
First with one hand and then the other I pull myself in.
The hole sucks me in farther and farther until all that is left is the whole.
Still the hole is left and nothing will take it away.
I try to run away from myself but I cant.
How can you run away from something always with you?
So I ran into myself instead of away,
Yet always something will be left.
A wisp or maybe a shell but still something.
So in running away, or within you still can’t accomplish any peace of mind.
Remember
Standing in a solitary line,
Uniform facing one direction as grey as death itself.
From all over united in death.
These words are about the soldiers.
The brave and meek that fought for our “freedom”.
Now dead, buried and almost forgotten.
How often do you think of them?
Not enough no one could possibly think about them as much as they deserve.
Their graves are bare of flowers.
The crosses lie crooked or broken.
Silent wind descends over their decomposed remains and we shamefully forget their courage.
So think of the soldiers isn’t that what they did for you when they protected our future?
Go to the cemetery and walk amongst the stones standing in a row and find the solitude amongst them.
Listen to them, “If ye break faith with those who die”, and whisper back, “How could I?”.
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| Teaching Style |
| 09.06.04 (11:53 am) [edit] |
When I was growing up I wanted to be many different things. In grade one I wanted to be a palaeontologist. People would remark how crazy it was that I’d be able to know what that was let alone want to be it. Then in about grade four I wanted to be an actress. I think for awhile I wanted to be a veterinarian or a nurse but finally in grade ten I set my sights on an occupation I think I will really love. I want to be a history teacher. It started when I first took grade ten history. We had to do an assignment on Vimmy Ridge and our teacher made it both fun and educational. I have never known a teacher to do such a good job at making history fun and from that moment on I knew I wanted to do the same for other kids. Now I spend my time trying planning out how I’m going to teach. Sometimes I sit in class day dreaming of how I will make school fun. Probably I’ll end up being just another teacher but because I know they are restricted in how they behave. If I could do anything though I’d do this: First of all on the first day of school I would get all my students together and make them sit on their desks. Then I would outline the rules and maybe play a few name games. Next I would introduce them to the history in music. I would play Hendrix, The Who, Neil Young, Bob Dillon and other artists who have something to say about their times. I would then teach them about the events in the songs and encourage them to find their own songs with history. Then I daydream about bringing in my hot husband who is a writer of historical fiction and he gives lectures to them about history. All in all I just want to evoke the passion for history my teacher gave me in all my students, because you know what? HISTORY IS FUN!
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| Sunday & Monday |
| 09.06.04 (11:47 am) [edit] |
Well these two days I never really did anything. I mostly just sat around the house. I didn't really feel like doing much of anything. I also slept like the whole day. Tuesday, Wednesday are still free for me too however now on Thursday & Friday I am busy at my dad's and my cousins. Life is busy but I like it better this way. I am still super excited to go to university again. I am still waiting to see if I get on some wait listed courses or not. At this point I'm a little confused about the process and no one seems to be able to tell me anything. The website tells me to see the help button however I have found no such button. I did find an FAQ but it's like "how do I start my computer" which I would have to point out doesn't help much being online because if you don't know how to read your computer you couldn't read that! It's like Ikea. I bought a bed from them and INSIDE the box it says "Please carry this with two people sideways and never one person up and down"... INSIDE the box! Meanwhile I'd already carried it up the stairs alone on it's side... As Al put it they might as well have not even written the instructions at all and saved some paper! Today is a fairly nice day so I think I will spend the remainder of the day reading outside on my deck. I need some calming breeze in my life! I still REALLY wanna see the movie Vanity Fair too but no one will go with me! GAH! All my friends have already left for university or college too so I am alone for this week. Oh well! That's enough rambling for the day! Love you lots!
- Cherry Bomb :twisted:
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| Screaming Trees |
| 09.04.04 (8:10 pm) [edit] |
I know it's not a very original tittle but I am tired and have a headache. Today I went with my mom to school to help her get her classroom ready. I don't know how much help I was as I am still having breathing troubles and could barely move anything but I think just having the company was nice for her. Then we went out for dinner to Tim Hortons. When I got home my friend Amy phoned me and an hour later she came and picked Cole and I up to go out.
We ended up playing mini golf for about an hour. It was lots of fun. Amy won and Cole and I tied. I think we annoyed the people behind us profusley but that's their own problem! We were really slow and really bad. Amy got 53 while cole and I got 56. Then we went to the movies. We stayed there for like ten minutes tringto decide on a movie but we ultimately could not agree. Amy and I wanted to see Vanity Fair but it was on too late because amy has to work tomorrow. Cole wanted Exercist but I am SCARED of movies... I mean really scared it messes with my mind! Amy and I also wanted to see without a paddle but cole had seen it two times before.
We then went to a store and then McDonald's. It was lots of fun. I had a brain fart and ordered a number two when I really wanted a number four but it turned out ok. I think cole and Amy thought i was crazy though. Then I got a MASSIVE headache and almost threw up but I took some pills and lay down once I got home.
I bought some new CDs lately... actually I'm rather pissed off! I ordered a CD online "Screaming Trees - Uncle Anesthesia" and it said it would take 7 - 10 business days to get to me and it hasn't yet and it's been like two weeks worth of business days. Once I obtain it however there is only ONE screaming trees CD left I do not own! I already have Sweet Oblivion and Dust... now I know you probably have never heard of this band not many have. If you have please let me know! Anyway if not the ex bassist plays for The Queens of The Stone Age and Mark Lanegan the EX lead singer worked on the majority of the songs in the rated - R album. So anyway Mark Lanegan I bought his new CD Bubblegum... a few songs remind me of Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds (if you know them) but basically it's described as Rock, Blues and Folk music. Mark Lanegan ROCKS! I need to start collecting his Cds now! So anyway I recomend any of the aforementioned bands!
WOOO going back to school soo soon, but for now it's off to bed.
- Cherry Bomb :twisted:
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| Long Time Comming |
| 09.04.04 (7:04 am) [edit] |
I shudder to think of how long it’s been since I’ve written in this so I’m not even going to look. I
tried to write in it a couple of nights ago but twice the computer locked up and shot down while I
was right in the middle of it so I decided if I had to write it one more time that night I would
have to kill someone. So I waited until today. I’m now writing it on word perfect so it will not
shut down on me partway through. I’m probably going to bed halfway through writing this too as
it is ten am and I just woke up to get my puffer. So here is a recap of what’s been happening:
Recap
So my family has been on vacation. I guess now it was about two weeks ago they got back. I
unfortunately could not go as I was working at the museum still. I stayed at my friends house
during this time. She lived about five minutes away from my work. Her family was SO NICE to
me and I’ve never felt so welcome in my life in such a new environment. It was a good vacation
for me as I got control of her basement which had it’s own bathroom and big screen TV with
cable (I still have an antenna at home). However I felt badly because while at her house I got
sick and didn’t want to make her whole family sick. I had “Walking Pneumonia”. Then about
three days after I went to the doctor I had an allergic reaction to my medication. About two days
after that I went camping with my friend, my boyfriend and two other friends of mine. It made
for an interesting trip with my allergic reaction but I started taking Benadryl to quell the itching.
My friends started making fun of me calling me a “Benny Head”. About a week after all this I
headed home and met my mom and sister. They had a nice vacation filled with lots of laying
around at the beach.
Two Wednesday’s ago I also finished my last day at work. I still get a paycheck this Thursday so
I am excited. I dunno how much I like working but I love the money! Even though I have barely
spent any of it because I am saving it for school. My last day of work was good. It almost took
me over three days though to clean up the mess from the children! I miss some of the kids. It’s
true that they say the “Darndest things”. One kid told me I looked pretty on my name tag and
then she told me I should always wear that shirt in the picture. Then I was talking to another kid
and I said “Can I help you with something?” and she was like “I need you!” and gave me a big
hug! It was so cute. I also love talking to the parents. It’s nice to hear how wonderful and
responsible you are for looking after all their children hehehe.
Last week I went up to school to get my room ready in my new townhouse. I am so excited it’s
basically all ready for me except I need to bring up my clothes, My computer and buy a mattress.
My room looks pretty funky with my Jimi Hendrix poster all put up and I got this amazing round
purple chair... I am in heaven honestly! If only I didn’t have to go to class lol. I move up on sept
11th and there is a gay pride parade that day. Maybe I’ll have to stop my moving and check it out.
I’ve never been to one before. So I guess that about catches me up to last night!
Last Night:
I went to my friend Jenn’s house. It was lots of fun even though we just sat around. Her poor
father broke his wrist and had to get pins put in it. I felt super bad for him! I remember what my
surgery was like and I did not have fun! We watched the movie “Along Came Polly”. It was
actually pretty good and cute. I dunno if you want to trust me though apparently my sister says
my taste in movies is going down the tube. I can’t wait to see Vanity Fair though. A critic said
“it’s not just stuffy English Accents and corsets” but even if it was I’d be in heaven! I so wish at
my job at the museum we had to dress up! I’m so jealous of those who can!
Today:
Well today I’m supposed to go out with my friends Amy and Nichole to go bowling but before
that I have to go out with my mom to help her set up her classroom. It should shape up to be a
pretty good day! I’ll talk about it later!
- Cherry Bomb :twisted:
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